Confessions of a Mom

I do everything that you’re not “supposed” to do: co sleep or put her to sleep on her belly, nurse to sleep, and hold her as much as I can.

I mourn each milestone as much as I celebrate it (sometimes more). Jane getting her teeth was just one more reminder that she will not be my little baby for long.

Very often I forget to take her weekly or monthly picture, so I take it late…. Or not at all.

I function remarkably well on a remarkably small quantity of uninterrupted sleep.

Many times Andrew now has to wake me when he hears Jane cry at night. I guess my super sonic mom hearing has disappeared.

I always said a first birthday party was a waste, but I’m already planning Jane’s.

I get bored sometimes.

Sometimes I get frustrated that I can’t put Jane down in her crib for a nap, so I have to remind myself that I will miss this one day and to enjoy it while I can.

This is the best job ever. Bar none.


Home Now

This has been a tough week for so many people. I’ve heard several reports of people losing loved ones, and our family was one of them. My grandmother and Andrew’s uncle went to be with the Lord this week. Please pray for comfort for those left behind. While we will miss them greatly, we know that we will see them again one day and that they are healthy and whole in the presence of their Savior. And for that, I am thankful.


Jane and Grandma meeting at Thanksgiving


There are many people who say that nursing a baby to sleep is a bad idea. They say it forms negative sleep associations and you should really put the baby to bed when they are awake. Perhaps the baby will need to self soothe to sleep, or maybe she will fall asleep easily, but put her down awake.

I am not, however, one of the people that says that. I almost exclusively nurse Jane to sleep. This began out of necessity when she was a newborn and had continued because (a) it’s easy, (b) it works almost without fail, and (c) I only have this day with her and holding/nursing her will soon be but a memory.

We don’t have a perfect system. Shoot, just about the time I get cocky and think I have her figured out, she changes. But that is just one more reason to absorb her sweetness every chance I get.

I am so blessed.