Adventures in Frugality

I’m feeling very frugal today.  We went to Wal-Mart today to pick up a few things when I spotted a patio set for $98.  This patio set had a sign on it for $50 gift card giveaway and we decided to go ahead and buy it even though we weren’t sure whether or not we would really get a gift card.  Well, it turns out that we did get a gift card… bringing down the cost of the patio set to $48!!  We would be hard pressed to find a used set in good condition for that price so I am thrilled with our purchase.  I can’t wait to eat outside on our porch!

$48 well spent 🙂

Sweet Moments

Today I was sitting at work while “rocking” (quotes because a preemie should not be rocked) a baby and was just looking at him when my eyes began to well up with tears.  This is a baby who, against all odds, will be going home in a relatively short amount of time and I don’t know why I became so emotional… but I did.  I don’t know if it had something to do with Summer and the fact that I thought that I had closed up my heart and built an impenetrable barrier that no baby or family would be able to get through again… and this baby got through.  I don’t know if it has something to do with the fact that I was so close to burnout just a few weeks ago, and it is moments like this one that bring me back to this job every shift.  I don’t know if it had anything to do with how I’ve been feeling lately about having my own children one day.  I don’t know if I was just in complete awe of this child that God knit together in his mother’s womb and the power of the Lord to heal him.

Maybe it was all of the above.  All I do know is that it was one very sweet moment.

I’ve Noticed Something

I’ve started to use profanity a lot more of late.  I don’t like it.  I used to despise profanity and felt like there was never any call to use it—I think that I can even pinpoint the day that I just let go.  It was one of the many days that Summer went to surgery and I was so fed up with so many things.  I had become frustrated to the point that I didn’t know how to deal and it only continued to worsen from there.

I hate the way that I have allowed this abusive and vulgar language to become a part of my vocabulary.  I hate the way that these words are constantly in my thoughts, even though most times I resist the urge to say them.

Thinking

As I was taking Harrison on a walk today, I started thinking about my New Year’s Resolutions.  Here we are, one-third of the way through the year, and what I have I done to make this year different from last?

In case you don’t remember (and I had to look them up), these were my resolutions for this year:

  • Be the same person to everyone—authentic
  • Mean what I say and say what I mean
  • Minimize the negativity
  • Love Jesus more
  • Give people the benefit of the doubt
  • Extend the hand of grace to those that I don’t particularly like

Now, I don’t know why I created unmeasurable goals for myself.  I learned in nursing school that in order to actually achieve a goal, you have to make them measurable and it helps to create a plan to meet them.  I mean, I can say that I am working toward these goals, but what proof do I really have?  Honestly, I think that I was trying to take the easy way out.

What actually brought these things to mind today was the health care bill; I was thinking about how my views on it have changed and continue to be molded with each passing day and with each new thing I learn.  I think it’s very–funny is not the right word—but interesting how my political views have changed since I was in high school and even in the last year.  People say that you usually think about religion and politics the way that your parents do, and while that may largely be true, I hope and believe that I have grown a little bit beyond that and have discovered truths in both subjects on my own.

With these things in mind, I would like to set some new resolutions for this next third of the year:

  • Learn about political happenings through reliable sources—taking into consideration the views of those I interact with daily—but taking my facts from the horse’s (or donkey’s) mouth.
  • Make further steps toward running a greener and more organic household more cost effectively.  For instance, commit to spending at least one hour a week looking for coupons for products that I buy regularly that are also good for the environment and my body, as well as look for ways to reduce energy consumption in my home.
  • Further commit to making my body a temple for the Holy Spirit.  Yes, He dwells in me already, but I would like for Him to have a home that is not clogged with cholesterol and other toxins.  I will eat organic meat and produce when available, as well as spend at least 30 minutes in physical activity on my days off, and take the stairs when I am working.  I would also like to do at least one cleanse (anyone know of any good ones?).
  • Keep in mind my “old” resolutions and work toward being the best representation of Christ that I can possibly be… only through His strength.

Possibility of Hope

I had a conversation on Monday that renewed my hope… maybe not renewed hope… but at least gave me a sliver of hope regarding this new health care bill.  Being a pretty conservative person, and not much for reading hundreds upon hundreds of pages of legaleese, I only knew what was told to me about this bill, and what I heard I did not like.  I did not like hearing that if you need a routine procedure like a pap smear, or an MRI for a non-emergent something or other (i.e. my spinal tumor), your wait times would be ridiculous.  I also heard that Obama would have direct access to your bank account, that NICU would suffer from lack of funding, that the government would dictate quality of life and end of life decisions.  I could go on and on.  I’m not saying that any of these things are true or not, but I am saying that I am done taking my information from heresay.

I read this and felt a little bit better.  He explained the taxes a little bit more clearly, and although I still say families who make $250k are not wealthy and that tax brackets need some serious updating, it makes a little bit more sense.  I also read something that Casey posted about the health care bill offering some benefits to breastfeeding/pumping mothers, and while that portion still has a way to go, I am grateful for the added protection it offers.

Another myth (?) that has been perpetuated is that people in other countries (France, Canada, England, etc.) have horrible healthcare systems that are not working, but after talking to an English person this week, I found this to be untrue.

This whole thing is so confusing and hits close to home.  What I’d really like is for someone who is truly unbiased to summarize what is really going to happen.

Easter

I still get an ache in my heart when I think about Summer and the fact that I won’t be able to hold her again this side of Heaven.  On Easter, however, God gave me a renewed peace.  Though I don’t have immediate access to her, I will see her again, and when I see her she will be completely whole — smiling and basking in the light of the Savior of the world.

Thank you, Jesus, that You now hold the keys to death and the grave.  Thank You that through Your sacrifice, I, and Summer, are healed.  Thank You, Jesus!!!

Hallelujah!

Low in the grave He lay
Jesus my Savior!
Waiting the coming day-
Jesus my Lord!

Up from the grave He arose,
With a mighty triumph o’er His foes;
He arose a Victor from the dark domain,
And He lives forever with His saints to reign.
He arose! He arose!
Hallelujah! Christ arose!

Vainly they watch His bed-
Jesus my Savior!
Vainly they seal the dead-
Jesus my Lord!

Up from the grave He arose,
With a mighty triumph o’er His foes;
He arose a Victor from the dark domain,
And He lives forever with His saints to reign.
He arose! He arose!
Hallelujah! Christ arose!

Death cannot keep his prey-
Jesus my Savior!
He tore the bars away-
Jesus my Lord!

Up from the grave He arose,
With a mighty triumph o’er His foes;
He arose a Victor from the dark domain,
And He lives forever with His saints to reign.
He arose! He arose!
Hallelujah! Christ arose!