I have learned a great deal about myself this past year, especially in these last few weeks. Most of these things are not particularly good and I am not particularly excited about what I have learned.
Today as I was coming home from the grocery store I thought about a New Year’s Eve spent with some friends in high school and all I wanted to do was enter the new year in prayer; I thought that it would be so cool to set the tone for that next year by talking to Jesus. As I think about who I was then and who I am now, I have mixed feelings. On the one hand, I have grown a lot from the (really) judgmental/legalistic person that I was to someone who is less so. On the other hand, I feel that my love and passion for Christ has waned and I am much more of a gossip than I would like to admit.
In light of this, here are my New Year’s resolutions:
- Be the same person to everyone—authentic
- Mean what I say and say what I mean
- Minimize the negativity
- Love Jesus more
- Give people the benefit of the doubt
- Extend the hand of grace to those that I don’t particularly like
It’s going to be difficult. Seriously. Really difficult. I know that I am going to fall flat on my face, but I also know that I serve a forgiving God.